Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Backing up Firefox . . . everything!

I'm a big Firefox fan. If you are, too, and would like to backup extensions, passwords, etc. then get Febe. There's even a link to make a single, .xpi that can be used to reinstate/reinstall everything. Sweet.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Silly Scientists, Strings are for kids

I watched a movie of what is touted as "String theory, explained for the normal human." From all I've read, it's a great video!! He clearly states, in easy terms, that what he's espousing is silly. He just didn't seem to notice!

1) Every "extra" dimension is always called a smaller-than-we-can-see dimension. They never describe NEW dimensions, only super-small measurements, beyond what we can currently measure. That's not a new dimension, it's just small. Even his ants video goes against his point.

2) "Ah, but those are just metaphors, the extra dimensions are in the Math!" Only because they were IMPLIED in the Math (see his first point on how a 5th dimension ever entered the conversation). The extra dimensions are implied, then formulas are created, then the extra dimensions are "validated" with "Hey look! Those extra dimensions are required for our extra-dimension equations to work!" Silly.
- Even further, the 5th dimension guy felt that gravity "took" 3-dimensional space so electro-magnetic radiation had to have a whole new dimension. What?!? First, it would require THREE new dimensions since the effect is 3-dimensional. Second, why can't it co-exist with gravity, since the effects of each of them are on the original, 3 dimensions? Weird.

3) It's like N.A.S.A. looking for "life" by looking for "water" on Mars. Why water? If the odds of live being created as it is on Earth are ridiculously large, is it really a good idea to exponentially increase those odds by stating that all life that could ever evolve will always need water?!! If the odds were say, 1 million to 1 that life could evolve the way it did on earth. The odds of life evolving the same way on Mars is now 1 million to 1 million to 1 -- 1 million to the power of 1 million . . . to 1. Silly.

Sting theory, as is constantly being explained in both "layman's terms" and in more "insider" terms always seems to be a theory based on a hypothesis that's rather silly.

So if the "scientific" scientists are silly, and the Christian-ish scientists are silly . . . who's not silly?

Monday, April 14, 2008

I'm tired so I cry

I can tell when my soul is tired these days (since around 2004) because I cry easily. I started to cry this morning as we read of Bartimaeus and I heard "Jesus, son of David!, have mercy on me!"

And again, today I finally read the Stiff's blog entry on a great man, Clyde Cook. Among other things, he was president of OC International for a bit. He died on Mikaela's birthday, that's the hard part for me. Sabina Wurmbrand (incredible wife of the incredible pastor Richard Wurmbrand) died on my birthday, from what I recall. While I don't really care much about my own birthday, it's awkward to have a death (end) and a birth (start) remembered on the same day. I think I feel like Solomon writing Ecclesiastes.

I hate it when the greats die. So few of them exist, their death feels almost like an extinction. Great ones, in this sense, are the ones who go through bad life-experiences that they could not create for themselves and not only "make it" but thrive afterward - even more so, they bring light to the darkness that is trying to crush them. Like the "story of the Philippian jailer." I don't really want to be one of these "greats" - too expensive, hurts too much, too much potential for harm to be done to those I love (physically, emotionally, spiritually). I DO want to be one, but I don't.

This is what I think about when I'm emotionally tired.

Thursday, April 03, 2008

I surrender all

In my journey towards emotional health (or simply having emotions), I hit a wall this morning called "Surrender." I realized that I have spent most of my life assuming that I surrender that which is good, desired, or powerful: my future, my will, my gifts, my family, etc. I have wrestled with God about His Church, my future, and other really good things.

But what about my pain? I have wrestled with surrendering my "loss" that comes from not getting the full expression of my vision for the Church (yikes). I have tried to surrender to the "loss" of not fully expressing all of who I am (self-actualization). But I don't think I've really surrendered those losses that actually take-away from what I have or am. I haven't surrendered "the bad."

As I have written previously, I am finding out a lot in regards to being let-down by God. So now I am realizing that I might come to God for help with my pain, but I won't surrender holding onto my pain. Offenses from the past, wounds from 15 years ago, etc. I hold onto them as if they keep me "humble" or "real" or ...

Somehow, pain never seemed to be something to surrender. As if pain is a good thing to have so I just keep holding it, keep it safe. I can be "healed" and able to move on, but I never thought to surrender the pain, the bad. I don't think I'm espousing denial. I think this would be closer to forgiveness, continually forgiving because the pain is continually aroused.

Surrendering the bad. Weird.

Thanks again, Pat, for having gravity in the emotional realm and thereby altering my spin!

Living in America

In this land of luxury
The greatest threat to Life is me